from a movie.. i really liked it

pleasure turns to the pain
lessons learned from the strain
questions burned in my brain..
about whether love is humane
in its touch.
these thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream
in the tears of your deceit.
fighting the current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos
of our intertwined emotions.
chaotic because the anchor of Erros' arrow has been plucked
from the vessel of my undying infatuation
separation not as simple as the distance between us
my mind no longer possessed by demons
that have been the overseers of my enslavement to your lies
the seeds of these lies rooted so deeply
they have cracked the foundation of what we once shared
allowing the faith in us i had sealed inside
to gush out like a river
ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts
as violently and as brutally as if it were a child
being taken from its mothers arms
im left surrounded in darkness
but i refuse to be swallowed by it
my lonliness like the night air
invisible to the eye
obvious to the touch
it is cold uncomfortableness
yet if i could do it all over again
id do it in the same skin im in
to lay down and let love die
just stay down and let love lie?
no, no..not i
id stay around and let love fly
even though i have seen its darkest form
deceit
nothing else could taste this warm
or feel this sweet..

                            Never

People enter and exit peoples lives in the
beat of a heart, but some will stick with
you much longer.  some will have
the strongest impact on your life that they
practically make it worth living.  Never has
so much blood been shed from ones body
in the pain and fear of loosing her.  Never
has so much hatred been felt towards the
ones that she cares most about.  Neverf
has so much anger flown through ones
veins, to be released at the touch of a razor,
never has so much guilt and sorrow been
felt in undying sleepless nights spent crying in
their room.  Never has one trown up
so much, because of the sickness that overcomes
him when he hears about her feelings towards
anotehr person.  and enver has so much regret
been felt, because she deserves the world and
a friend that is as perfect as god.  Never
will he know what its like to call her his,
and never will the unhapiness leave, but the
marks are still there, to remind him, of just
how much of an impact she has had on his life.

                                 Why

Lost deep inside the confusion of life, why
do some get every desire, and some await
but to only recieve the heart broken anticipation
of the emptyness they recieve.  How can one be
so happy to be alive, without a purpose, or a even
a reason for being here.  How can one take for
granted what another would give more than his
lifea nd sould for.  What is the point?  Why hang
on, and wait another day, when each day
that passes seems worse than the last.  How can
something so simple bring so much joy, or something
so complex bring so much unhappiness.  How can
three powerful words mean they would give their life
but when said to someone else, makes you want to take
your own.  Will the jealousy ever leave, and will I ever
feel whole? why wait to find out, but then again, why not?

                         I love you

I love you, as simple as it may sound,
or as powerful as it may be. I would give
mylife over and over in the most painful of ways
if it could bring one minute of happiness to your
life.  I would walk the furthest distance that
any man has ever walked before, just to hold
you for a few seconds.  I would take the
pain of the world for you, just to see you smile.
Theres nothing i wouldnt do, to spend my last
moments on earth with you.  I'll teach you everything
I know, and give you everything i own.  I'll give up
all that makes me happy, because i can never loose
the memories that i have with you.  I wouldn't trade
them for the world, because you mean the world to me,
and althrough words and emotions arent strong enough,
to show the smallest amount of how much I love you,
that it what the threee words mean to me.